Weekend Update

Hi.

If I had to come up with a short description for my weekend, the word would simply have to be bummer. You already know about Charlie. I wrote about him yesterday. *sigh* There is more, though...

This weekend, one of my more important relationships took a major hit. Granted, the hit has been building for the past several weeks. That fact does not diminish the pain & hardship of it. I try to think about where it will go from here, but the emotions are still too raw & fresh to spend much time dwelling on it.


I took some long looks at myself in the mirror. They were hard looks. I did not like what I saw. Being in therapy tends to do that to a person ~ create those long looks, I mean. How much can I change? How much do I want to? Do I even have the strength to do it?





Rush went to sleep today. Permanently. I don't know how much more to write about this except to say the vet was very nice and confirmed our decision was the right one. I'm sad.



I feel overwhelmed. I feel bruised and very tired. The past few days have been very rough for me, and the beat-up feeling is evident on my face.


Tonight, for the first time since moving into my own place, I ate dinner on the couch in front of the tv.


I had grandiose plans to get some work done tonight. I actually brought some home with me. And there is always eBay..I'm constantly listing and/or relisting....but I think I'll be vegging on the couch instead, flipping between the football game and The Two Towers while working my jigsaw puzzle and/or reading Narnia.

Bummer does describe the past few days. However, Total Bummer does not. There were a few good moments.



There was a fun 2 hour foray to University Commons that started with a sandwich at Schlotsky's and ended with coffee and a few purchases at Barnes and Nobles.







Andy and I had great conversation and a couple of nice strolls. It is nice to be able to be friends and talk again. It has been a long time. Too long.





There was a family gathering/housewarming at Shannon & Shepard's apartment. It was a good time. The best part was seeing Shannon so happy. She also seemed quite relaxed & comfortable. I'm very proud of her.



This week has to be better than last, doesn't it? And this weekend I know for a fact will go much better than last weekend. More on that later.

I was hoping this entry would make me feel better. I think I'll go to the couch now. Aslan is over there.